Until the recent carnage staged by a group of terrorists in the Northern Ossetia town of Beslan in southern Russia, I had some very special feelings about September 1, just like many other Russians did. The Day of Knowledge that traditionally marks the beginning of the new school year in Russia, the date always brought back fond memories of my first day in school, my first teacher and my new friends. Later on in life it came to signify other things: instead of "back to school", September 1 served as a reminder to me that the lazy hazy days of summer were almost over. It was time to go "back to office", to think about new plans and new beginnings. All these memories and feelings have been shattered now. For me, as for millions of Russians, September 1, from now on, will bring to mind the images of agony and despair of the three days in September that have changed Russia.